...why I can't understand the situation?

I understand...I know what's going on...
I try to just stop giving you pressure, but it's like...an inner child...who's screaming and refusing to understand...
Who still wants to do what I, myself, really wanted...
I know that they get sad everytime I ask for something they can't grant...
This situation itself...it's killing me...my life, my character.
I don't know what to do...I can't make this thing go away...
I can't make this shit to leave my mind...
Everyday...I'm like in a torture chamber, living like this...
It hurts...a lot...
This is psychological pressure...
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♥ c.

Thank you for ur support guys!!
Makasih smua yg udah support gw...
Tmn2 smua...
Udah cukup yah...stop the chaos... I'm going to be just fine...
Dia kan udah bahagia...sama org laen...I was broken...but I got over it now...so you guys can stop the insults and debates...
I appreciate everything you guys did, especially leaving messages on my page...
Gw selalu mampir utk baca2 lohh... :D
You guys cheer me up!
Doaiin gw sama Carlo yah...
Smoga gak terulang lg kejadian yg sedih2...

So that's it for now...just a short message...bye, and thanks!!!
-Elz♥C-
moga2 slamanya yah...heheheheee...*PEACE!!


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HELLLPPPP!!!!!

I'm robbed!! I've been robbed!! HELLLPPPP!!!!
I've been robbed of my internet rights!!!

*silence*
[slippers thrown at me]

I finally get to blog again...well, this might be my last post...*exaggerating mode : on
Ugh...with my bro here, and me failing to have my period last month...it's very easy for me to get pissed...
haha.
My bro keep using the damn PC...play stupid games...like usual.
*no offence to gamers, peace, lol.

Come to think of it... I never spent time with my bro at home in Malaysia...
But here, in Indonesia...where we don't have our own rooms...
We see each other like the whole day...
And I don't know why..I find  him very annoying...his jokes...his questions...
Okay, don't get me wrong...I love him...(as long as I don't see him all day long...teehee)
La la la...
Don't really feel like blogging anyway...

Dead...
-Elz-

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Sicckkk...

I had fever for 2 days straight...Went to the doctor yesterday... And for some reason, the doctor here is very generous with antibiotics. He gave me three 500mg antibiotics...
I drank only one though...and I'm already feeling better. Way better than the last two days I thought I'm gonna die...
Actually, it's just throat inflammation. This is where I come to doubt...like, throat inflammation? I don't feel any pain... but when he checked, he did say that my throat is red... but I don't feel any pain at all.
Anyway...I'm better now...Just a little weak...
Hahahaha...


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good. better. (not) best.

I'm young. I'm crazy.
I couldn't care less.

This year is really boring...
I shouldn't have paid for the bloody internet...I paid my cousin's internet fee... Rp126.000...which is  equivalent to 42 bux...
Yeah...then he keep playing stupid MMOs...yea right... I should have paid for internet cafe...
Which means...paying for what I used...not paying excessively...and in the end...I only get to use on daytime...
I feel cheatedddd...

This weekend...my two cousins and me is going to watch 2012...finally.
but according to TV...it's very hard to get 2012 ticket... it sold out for almost every session...
But if we watch tomorrow...my bro will be here too...
but I don't think he wants  to go...I don't think so...

Btw...the thing I like about going out with my cousin is...I get to ride a motorbike...going fast on the road...the wind blowing in my face...

Haahhh...something I only experience with my cousins...since no one I knew rides a motorbike in Malaysia.

And...I think I wrote somewhere in my blog that I already started planning my sweet sixteen..I'm inviting my fave cousins!! Full trip paid!!! I just want them to make a passport...cuz I really want their presence on one of the big events of my life...

It couldn't be a perfect sweet 16 without them...

The invitation should be ready by the time I got back to Malaysia... :DDD

Gw bisa berpura2  sampai kapan pun... tapi gw g bisa bohong sama diri gw sendiri...
Gw benci dia...dan itu tidak akan pernah bisa berubah...
Sampai kapan pun, dari awal sampai akhir...gw tetep aja g suka sama dia.
Gimana ya ngejelasin nya...
G enak aja gitu, ngeliat sifat nya, kelakuan nya...sok cantik geeetoooo...iiihhh...amit2, neng...
Gw tau lo jg benci sama gw... kita sama2 pura2... main sandiwara aja terus..
Gw juga bisa...emang cmn lo yg bisa?
Dulu juga lo ikut mojokkin gw...ngomongin gw yang jelek2...
Tapi di dpn gw...lo ngomong nya dia g  bolehin lo deket2 sama gw...
Gw tau...lo nya aja yang g nyadar...bawaan otak lo yang guuuooooblokkk itu ya??
Iiihh...ngaku2 sok best friend... kaki gw lebih layak jd best friend gw daripada lo...
Best friend gw itu cmn satu...SATU... g ada yang lain...g ada ganti nya...lo ingat2 aja.
Lo bilang lo kecilan nya cute? iih... kaya gitu apanya yang imut?!
Gigi lo aja berantakan g rupa gi2 manusia gt...
Buat org yg ngetag foto lo ky...apa?? super model?? aduh mbakkk... kalo super model ky gitu...apa kata dunia, mbak?
Perut lo ky tante2  anak 3 tau...
Mata lo ky abis kena tonjok...
Gigi lo lg... g layak gw bahas deh..
bentuk badan lo emang kecil... liat aja...nti lo tua nya ky mak lo... berantakannnn!!!
HAHAHAHAHAHHH!!!!

Gw jahat banget ya? Kalo di total semua yg dia lakuin ke gw... ini g sebrp... klise yah?? terserah deh...emang kenyataan nya gitu koq...

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this is so la-a-a-te...

...but I'm still going to write about it anyway..
I'm going to write about it now....cuz NOW is the time I have to upload all the pics...
Not much cuz I really haven't been to much places, I will update again...
when I visit some interesting places...


1st Nov...
Flight to Surabaya...watched Final Destination 4 in flight...the movie was put in my phone the night before... In flight, I sat near to a white middle-aged man...who plugged his ears and slept through the whole flight...
Just before the plane landed, I camwhored...

Nov 2nd...

I followed my Dad to his office..for the sake of internet... I ended up playing in the corner...

alone...

 

After that, I spent the rest of the week shopping...with my aunt.

Nov 7th...

Went for lunch with my Dad, Aunt, Future Uncle, Grandpa...and his 2 nurses...= =

That's my Future Uncle a.k.a my aunt's bf...and my Aunt herself..Had lunch at Duck King...again...it's like everytime we go out with my Grandpa...it's always there.

Nov 8th...

Flight to Semarang... I was very scared when I found out my dad can't accompany me to check-in...in the end... I went...alone...

yup...I was all fine.

Waiting to board the plane...

I looked a mess...I was sweating cuz I was damn nervous...it's my first time flying domestic in Indonesia...actually second time...First was to Jakarta when we had to leave for emergency when a relative passed away... But first time alone...even checking-in...

Oh...then in Semarang...of course...street food... cheap...and some are my favourite...

'Tahu Petis' (Fried Beancurd with Black Shrimp Paste)

"Martabak" (Duck egg omelette with fillings)

etc, etc....

One of the stalls...

Okay... 'til here for now...

TTYL,

-elz-

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