I'm flawed, Daddy.

I'm not like what you want me to be. I'm being myself.
The way I behave, whatever I choose to do, I have reasons. Even if to you it looks like I'm one who gives up easily...and don't value whatever you gave me.
I'm like this. Like it or not, even if you think I'm bringing myself to self-destruction in the future, so be it.
This is me and no matter how, you can't change me the way you want me to be.
Just know that...
It's now I don't want to help, I help when I want to and when I feel the need to.
If you feel that I'm a leech, sucking money from your veins, I'll work my ass off to pay you in the future.
I may look like I'm pulling away from family activities, but the truth is, I feel like I don't belong around you because everytime I'm around you, I'm always that lil' imperfect bitch.

Thanks to you, I feel better if you just leave me alone. I feel better living alone.
But for now, sad to admit, I am not capable to do so.
I know how you want to throw me far, far away after I finish secondary school. The further, the better. Well, get ready to receive checks from wherever. I'm not going home.
I can just pretend, that I never had any parents...I just fell out of nowhere.

I'm flawed. Because I'm just an ordinary human.
I'm not going to be like whoever's kid..who knows how to do this and that.
I have my own abilites.
Even if you don't say so, I claim myself special.
I may have asked you for this and that...but I never asked you to have me.
You think I'm just a plain canvas rady for you to paint all over it the way you want?
Forget it. I'm a special canvas that has already come full-packaged.
I'm sorry though, if I'm not like what you want.


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