taking the stage.

The Last...

2010-06-04T01:25:00.000+08:00

Last post in you, dear bloggie...
Last post from Malaysia before I leave..
Last pots sent from Glenmarie Cove...
Last post from my good ol' Dell Dimension 3100...

Please look-up for my new blog in the next few days in my facebook profile...
Forever Luvs...

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2 more days to saying good-bye.

2010-06-02T12:20:00.000+08:00

Even though I know not much people are reading this, I would like to say thanks to those who does come here. I'm going to abandon this blog soon...*play dramatic/emotional music*
So yeah... I'll change blog soon to represent the new life I'm going to have soon...fresh start, I say. I would like to change the way I blog to a more original version of me. I want to be darn honest, not about people and etc. but what I'm feeling right from my heart. *fresh from the oven*
Please look out for my new blog address in my Facebook or Twitter...or even better, FOLLOW ME on Twitter... ;)

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shopping♥

2010-05-22T23:39:00.000+08:00

Much stuff to buy before I leave for Indonesia~ Clothes, home clothes mostly...I need lots of clothes..t-shirts, blouses, dresses, shoes, pants, shorts, etc.
Precisely, bought black shorts from Mango few days back...and realized that I might need more of those.. there's a beige one and a purple one, want both. C:
And bought a dress at blook too...but the problem is...it's too big...especially the upper part...siggghhh...
I'm finally buying a PC...shall be having it in about 1 1/2 weeks... :D
la la la...
Hey, I'm changing blog soon...reason I'm doing this is because I don't want to be reminded of memories etc when I post my (boring, plain ordinary) life story... so yeah...be waiting... C=

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mental pressure.

2010-05-17T00:16:00.000+08:00

Daddy is going to ask if laptop use in Ciputra is compulsory...
if it's not...that he wouldn't get me one...
Yeahhh....my Daddy is so one of that kind of people who will not buy their kids something unless it's in a life-or-death situation....
If it's not important, it can wait....yeah, that's my Daddy. They have a time for every single event in my life...from small ones like this...to the big ones.. 'Good parenting skills', bravo~.

Hopefully, I'll get a good news tomorrow...tee-tee-ta-ta.

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out of inspiration.

2010-05-14T00:27:00.000+08:00

everything I wanna talk about is about people...and how I feel towards them. Everybody has got this problem, really. Don't tell me you don't.. :)
Like there's one person who gave me bad memories for most of my school life...I try not to hold grudges, but everytime the attitude comes back...all my hate bursts out like an atomic bomb.But each time I'm being treated with all those friendliness, I always sucumb...it's like all my hate is buried. Now, I'm just going to be a neutral along with the flow. I don't want to get angry, I don't want to get friendly...I'm just a person. Acquintances...maybe somethings are worth keeping, but I'll leave them to the person...good or bad.. I won't carry anything.
Strangely...another person was someone I knew at the same time as the other person, only for 7 years, we rarely get into a conversation...Conversation is not the words...we never had a conversation as I remembered. Just few sentences to each other. or maybe words.
But I can't believe right now I'm being so open with that person...

Really...is the term 'Best Friends' ever related to time? I don't think so. well, for me...some does come from the beginning...but some arrived at the end too...and they're more understanding, caring, kind and most importantly...fits the term 'FRIEND'...better than some that came from the beginning just to treat me badly.

♥eLz

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I just noticed that I'm easily distracted...

2010-05-07T00:35:00.000+08:00

How sad.
it's like I made up my mind that I'm going to study my add. maths and maths...but the very next morning, I will open the book...scribble a little on it, solved a few questions (easy ones...) and..the next thing I know, my eyes is all over the computer monitor...
I'M SUCH A PATHETIC BITCH...!!!
I need to study for my IB courses..!! More accurate if I say...I need to study to take the enterance exam for the IB course..!!
I MUST NOT GRADUATE WITH MY BROTHER..!!!

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I LOVE YOU, SONY!!!

2010-05-05T23:28:00.000+08:00

hahahaha!!! It's like they knew what I want even if I don't say!!!
I'm so happy!!
I like the VAIO E series better than the CW...
better graphic card, and CW has that inclining keyboard!!!
but I thought of still choosing the CW because the E(B) series has a numpad that makes it bulky...

and just like that...
they are releasing the new E series next week!!
same processor (i3), same price...RM3299!!!

GYAAA!!! I ♥♥♥ sony!!!
Here's the pictcha~

NUMPADS BEGONE!!!! MWAHAHAHAHAHHH!!!

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PMR Folio...TT_TT

2010-05-01T23:32:00.000+08:00

It's only 2+ weeks before my bro has to hand in his History folio...My Mom is yelling at him every minute to finish it..and asking me to help him out....
This year's topic is something to do with culture...that means no trip...
Mine was more fun...XD we get to visit Melaka...
Anyway...my bro had to do Hari Raya Aidilfitri bcuz his most of his classmates already did Chinese New Year.
I asked Mom..."Why are you so angry? If he fails it's his problem..."
Mom's reply..."I got into an accident on the way to the library to get him the information...I don't know the way there and I went just to get him the information and it was 20 days ago..."

I wonder why Harold doesn't feel responisble..
He had the guts to tell my Mom he is supposed to be allowed to play game every weekend. Of cuz...Mom started screaming again after hearing that...
It's like he doesn't care if he doesn't finish the project in time...

and he's totally blur about everything.................................
like literally...LOST.

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puppies!!

2010-04-30T01:52:00.000+08:00

A dog near my bro's tuition recently gave birth to puppies...
At first there were quite a number of them, but now there's only 3 pups left. I hope the rest are taken by some kind soul out there.
I want one of the pups so badly, but I know that is not even close to possible. Mom keeps nagging..."House is never clean because of your dogs...blah blah..."
I'm not the one who fell for a mini poodle at the pet shop... =_= she did.
I fed the pups and their mom today...actually, the mom finished most of it...
I brought like 2 1/2 cups of Jewel's NutriEdge Salmon & Rice.
Mom said "Oh, I'm going bankrupt" when she saw the box I took to the car. LOL.

I wanted to take pictures of the pups and mom, but I'm afraid that taking out any gadget in front of them will freak them out...
At first my fav pup, the black-white patches and its sibling, a white one, approached me...and then another white one...
The pups don't eat much..maybe it's because they're too young to eat solid food?
The mom won't even approach the food until I back off...
And when I did...she gobbled up the food...
One by one the pups came to me...but there's this one white one...
keep licking my foot. I'm like "Aww...you're so cute..."
then it flipped over..."Owh...you're a boy..."
Gone are my hopes to take you home, little puppy. (Not that I have any chance...)
Okay...
As long as they're there...I'm going to feed them... But I only get to feed them 3 times a week, cuz my bro only have tuition every Monday, Wednesday and Thurs...
But I notice that people in that neighbourhood are taking care of their wellfare too, they made shelter for them by using plastic bag over the bushes and an umbrella...
Well, a temp home for the furkid family.
*I think the pups have retriever blood in them...cuz they look like retrievers... :D
I don't mind fostering the pups though...but I'll have to give them up to people when they're old enough...that's the tough part...

toodles,

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personne ne prend mon coeur brisé....

2010-04-25T01:30:00.000+08:00

Deux personnes que j'aime, tout semblait être hors de ma portée,

Je suis tellement stupide dans l'amour.

Il ya en lui quelque chose qui me tient intéressés,

Mais il est si heureux avec les autres.

L'autre, je ne peux que rêver.

En fait, je rêve de tout tout le temps.

J'ai peur de la chose qu'on appelle l'amour.

Je suis perdu et confus que fille.

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That's me-- in your eyes only.

2010-04-24T00:50:00.000+08:00

being human is always about being liked and disliked. At least that is part of the package.
Phew, it's been a month since I quit Lethia...and started my own holiday before I restart my school in July, in a new country, new school, the biggest part of it...new people.
I've been telling myself that I need to be really serious and study my ass off. The entrance test might not be easy...since the curriculum is fancy. (Not Indonesian Curriculum, mind you...tee hee). So far, I tried studying add. maths.. .guess what? Their Standard Level Maths...already has Form 5 add maths topic in it...
Seriously, I don't want to be in Year 10...I have to work hard to prevent that from happening!

Blah.
Back to the topic. Being liked and disliked.
Why do I want to talk about this? Because I just came up with a thought.
This thing...the whole 'liked and disliked' thingy..
Yeah, it's all the social thing. Either one of the category, people will talk about you.
It exists because you cannot be that angel that simply loves everyone inside out. Even the closest person to you, there'll always be some qualities that you dislike. (Even so-called soulmates...)
To be 'liked'...that too, not everyone will like you though.
Lets say, in a school...
Usually, the good-looking, flirtatious, bubbly, sociable but not-so-good-in-studies kid will be liked by most of the students. And some teachers might like that kid, some might not.
And the nerdy, not-so-good-looking, not socieable kid will be invinsible, or worse, hated by the fellow students. The teachers who are on the other team hates them too though. But some teachers adore them.

Me?
I'm changing skin...figuratively.
I'm going to change everything from my style, my attitude and I just want to be the new person that's seen by the new eyes around me.
Of course, not forgetting people who's been with the previous version of me. They're always in my heart even if I change. ♥
All the while I've been afraid to make choices, to talk, to voice out. It happens when I'm around strangers.
The real me? I'm loud. I'm a good split of boy and girl attitude. I'm classy. I'm sensitive.
The 'me' you have seen all these while...well, as the title says...
THAT'S ME-- IN YOUR EYES ONLY.

luv ya♥ regards,

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XOXO, my bitches!!! U r the ones I'll nvr, ever, ever, ever x9999 FORGET...

I have nothing to say...

2010-04-18T23:46:00.000+08:00

...except that I think I feel like erasing all my posts.

I'm bored with the way I blog.

Doesn't suit the ture blogging way.

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I'm flawed, Daddy.

2010-04-16T18:39:00.000+08:00

I'm not like what you want me to be. I'm being myself.
The way I behave, whatever I choose to do, I have reasons. Even if to you it looks like I'm one who gives up easily...and don't value whatever you gave me.
I'm like this. Like it or not, even if you think I'm bringing myself to self-destruction in the future, so be it.
This is me and no matter how, you can't change me the way you want me to be.
Just know that...
It's now I don't want to help, I help when I want to and when I feel the need to.
If you feel that I'm a leech, sucking money from your veins, I'll work my ass off to pay you in the future.
I may look like I'm pulling away from family activities, but the truth is, I feel like I don't belong around you because everytime I'm around you, I'm always that lil' imperfect bitch.

Thanks to you, I feel better if you just leave me alone. I feel better living alone.
But for now, sad to admit, I am not capable to do so.
I know how you want to throw me far, far away after I finish secondary school. The further, the better. Well, get ready to receive checks from wherever. I'm not going home.
I can just pretend, that I never had any parents...I just fell out of nowhere.

I'm flawed. Because I'm just an ordinary human.
I'm not going to be like whoever's kid..who knows how to do this and that.
I have my own abilites.
Even if you don't say so, I claim myself special.
I may have asked you for this and that...but I never asked you to have me.
You think I'm just a plain canvas rady for you to paint all over it the way you want?
Forget it. I'm a special canvas that has already come full-packaged.
I'm sorry though, if I'm not like what you want.

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tra tra...another lappy pick.

2010-04-15T23:42:00.000+08:00

Sony E series...
The one that caught me was the one with the Blu-Ray..but it's only available in black... :(
I want white~ :((

Anyway...It's d VPCEB15FG...
I like it...the 'inside', processor, graphic card...it's just perfect...
But the screen is 15.5", which is quite big (I think) for me to carry to school...and it has a numpad...
Usually, business laptops have numpads...
Well, I get the idea... it's an all-round laptop..business,entertainment, education, etc. But still...
Considered cheap at RM3299.

The SONY VAIO E SERIES

PS: These all are just plain opinion. I'm just thinking of which will cover my needs when my Dad is busy working and to keep me away from BOREDOM. I'm looking for one at a reasonable price...And I'm not going to grovel and beg my parents for these. If they get me anything which is as good, I'm still happy about it.

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2010-04-12T00:43:00.000+08:00

the boss of da house is coming back TOMORROW....at 12am.
I mean...is he really that worried?? I'm surpirsed...seriously.
Yeah...I am surprised...I'm the meanie daughter remember? Nah, kiddin...
No, really.

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FML...

2010-04-10T18:59:00.000+08:00

[Bad Saturday for me...TT]
Hey heyyy...
I had an accident today while on the way to the library to get some info for Harold's History folio...
My mom don't know the way to the library...and since I was the only one who ever went there, she relied on me for directions and I am not sure too, the lst time I've been there was like...last year?
So with my limited memory, we managed to find the way there..
We could already see the builidng and we were going straight in front of the mosque,
ahead of us, was a road, from the mosque's direction...a junction...
My Mom and Harold saw a Kancil, it was going on a rather slow speed, and my mom went ahead...we were like...halfway there...and out of sudden, the Kancil speed up and I could see it right from the front right window...
Harold screamed but it's too late to react..
and all I could do was close my eyes and turned away....
The next thing I know I felt a hard movement around me and glass starts to fly around me...
the car moved a few meters more and stopped...
I looked at my mom...and I was shaking like mad...Both me and my mom didn't even dare to look behind at Harold because he was quiet. My Mom thought something bad happened to him...
But actually, he was the only one who could react in time...he managed to jump to the left side before the impact.
I noticed that my mom's door is bent inwards...shortly, the whole right side is dented badly.
I was shaking and in tears...and this caused my mom to panic...the only thing I could think of was to call my Dad...even though he is thousands of meters away. I just called him...
I called him on his cellphone but he did not pick up. I called the house phone...and no answer...I tried his cellphone again...he picked up..
All I could say was "Pa, Mama got in an accident," and I was sobbing heavily...
My Dad was all confused and asked who is on the phone like about 3 times...and that 3 times I told him "Aurel," but he asked..."What happened to Aurel?" =_= maybe I caused him to panic too...but haven't he heard of Caller ID?!
He asked me to stop crying and not to panic...and talk to him slowly...
and he called his friend...and we spent the whole day in Shah Alam...at Persiaran Damai...and the Police Station.

And guess what? They said it was my Mom's fault...I mean seriously?! I don't drive...but if it was to be my Mom's fault...like...that guy went first, and my Mom took risk by speeding and trying to cut him...then, the front part would be damaged instead of the middle, right?
Probably it's because THEY made the report first...and the police heard THEIR version of the story...
and because of the you-know-what reasons...

I could remember every moment of the impact and that is crazy...it's like it's video taped in my mind and it keeps going on replay...
DAMN.
And they're asking us to pay 300bux...? How sensible is that? It's always not about the money...300bux could come easily out of nowhere...but shouldn't there be justice?! For God's SAKE?! HAVEN'T ANYONE HAVE THE COMMON SENSE?!

PS: If my Mom is still supposed to pay 300bux...I hope, every cent in that 300bux will bring you torture like HELL. YEAH.I'm going to spit on that 300bux. TAKE THAT, bitch.

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cranky me.

2010-04-05T23:47:00.000+08:00

Hey to no one...jk.

Anyway, I'm going straight to the point this time. (It might eventually be dragged into a long post, tee hee),
I just noticed that I'm being really short-temepered these few days.
I don't know, I tend to get annoyed by small things and sometimes, I just have this mood swings and I feel like ripping someone's head off. [Alice In Wonderland, Red Queen quote : Off with her head!]
Argh...maybe it's because I'm ~~trying~~ wanting to tell something to my parents but I'm holding back because I'm afraid that I might give them more pressure. *roll eyes* Like as if they're not giving me.
People keep asking me this question right now..."When are you leaving?"
Okay...I'm actually supposed to go by the end of this month...but since my braces is not yet removed, it's only going to be removed in my next appointment and that is if I manage to close the small gap on the left side. My next appointment is 15th May...
If I do have to wait for my braces to be removed, I maybe going back later than planned. Mom said, June.
Then it hits me...I thought I was going to go there to take care of the house's renovation? And it'll take a few months before I can have a maid? I need a maid when I start school, DUH.
Dad is working, I need to learn to place myself in a new environment and all...I can't do housework...Plus, I'm not good at it and my whoel family knows it.

Sigh. WHATEVER. Seriously.

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Top 3 Lappy Picks...

2010-04-05T10:00:00.027+08:00

Okay, the main idea of this post is to experiment with the whole "Scheduled Post' thingy....
And I just want to share my picks of lappy...blah.

3rd choice...
Fujitsu L1010

Reason? It's colour...my dad have the exact same one but his is full black. I like the purple...LoL. But it's Intel Core 2 Duo...a bit outdated. RM 2,599.

2nd Choice...

Fujitsu LH700-330

Okay, I thought of the white one...but I hate the black screen. I don't liek how it goes with the white. It comes with Intel i3 processor though...RM 3, 299.

TA-DA...!!

my top pick...

No. 1...

SONY VAIO CW Series [VPCCW25FG]

14" screen...icy white!! =3= and and... it has this cool button...which enables me to surf the web without having to boot the PC...It opens Google Chrome if pressed... >< I love that. And....it has a censor behind the screen, it detects how much light is there around you and adjust it's brightness according to your surrounding...How cool is that? Sony webby said it's RM 3,299. d(^____^)b

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wwwwww

2010-04-04T01:25:00.000+08:00

Went to the dentist today...he said my teeth is very nice already~
and I only need to put that rubber rings on the left side because the right side has no more gap~!!
Next appointment...15th May..
Woo...then I can't follow Daddy? I have to fly alone again??
Btw...I don't know what to do while staying at home alone...
Parents wants to renovate our house in Indonesia...something with the maids' bedrooms and the kitchen...and the bathroom....the whole entire back section...maybe teh back garden too...but later.
OMG...I just realized I won't be going to school for about four months...
LoL...what do I do?? Study...just in case they give me a test later...
Fu fu fu.
Anyway...I don't feel sleepy at all... even with the fact that it is almost 2am right now.
Oh...and kinda pissed off at my dad...he's going to Germany with his friend on the 19th...he's supposed to go back here...okayyy???
Why go Germany??? Mom said I shoudln't question him...fine.
I can't imagine living with him for more than half a year...fmlfmlfml....
Fine, I'll jsut go to school...by the time I wake up, he'll be gone...and when I get back, he'll still be at work...and I will go to my cousin's...and ask him to fetch me when he's back from work...
Brilliant?
As always.

tee-tee-wai-el.

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The first step.

2010-04-01T02:03:00.000+08:00

I did it. I made my first step in my decision.
This morning, standing on the basketball court waiting for assembly...I feel so relieved that I finally did it. I finally tell Mr.Ang that I'm moving.
I am glad and sad (it rhymes!) that I made this choice. It's like...I can't believe that March 31st, 2010 is my last day...
I'll be lying if I don't say this. I am still scared in advancing. I am carefully choosing my steps.
I hope what I choose now, is the right path.
Now there's no turning back. I'm giving it my best.
Thank you all!!!
Sigh.

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TAMAGOTCHI ROXXXX!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2010-03-28T20:52:00.000+08:00

I did say I'm not going to post for some time in my last post right??
Well...today I went out with Winnie n Kit....and I bought a Tamagotchi Ver 6 Music Star. It came with a free notebook...
Got it at AJ for RM89.90 (a lil' ouch for a toy)
I got home and opened it...and I got a girl...
I named her Mari...(she's now sleeping)
Oh, and the model I chose has some errors with the date setting...luckily I read all about it yesterday~so I don't have to reset it... wahaha!!
Win and Kit accopmanied...and helped me chose..at first I bought the black with disco balls on it.. Well, I did think of buying that one when I look up for available models online. But there was also another one(the one I bought in the end) but it came with a green pick...I hated it..
So I bought the black one and went for movies...Alice In Wonderland....
Watching the movie I thought...I still want that blue one!!!
So after the movie I went back to Jusco and exchange...YAY! they allowed me to change without all the blahs..
I didn't regret it!!!!
I don't even feel guilty wasting my money on such toy...
It says 8+...the + will never have a limit!!!!

Tamagotchi Ver. 6 Music Star + Free Notebook

Oh, I bought a small pouch too. Bcuz from my last experience, if I just put it in my pocket, the buttons will get pressed whenever I sit or move...In the end, the green pick looks nice with the pouch!!! HAH!

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2010-03-27T12:27:00.000+08:00

Da dee dum dum...
I just got the WORST mark in my school history and I admit, it's really embarassing for me.
Even though my parents were like..."See? I told you," and not barking at my ears...I feel frustrated at myself.
What subject was that? Additional Mathematics...
and shockingly unbelieaveble...my Mathematics...is the 2nd highest subject in my first semester test...
I am so holy-cow-are-you-serious?!
Yeah, I suck.
Even Moral... I always scored A!!! 80++
and this test...guess what I got?
54... It's a really shocking moment when I held my paper...
Why did I get such low marks?
Because you are supposed to write your answers as what is written in the text books...
Hilarious, so now I'm suppose to memorize text books instead of just putting logical answers in my moral paper?
and EST...I got 80 at first....then the teacher took all the papers back...and I was absent for the next two days....
And I saw my paper...cut one mark... 79.
=_= I hate it... Now I have no As at all....
It's ironic...just plain ironic... I mean... like I got 7As in my PMR...and suddenly I flunked...like a roller coaster... What will I show my new school's principal?
My past years report cards...
I never flunked this way...
And I have proof... and my honest reason to him will be...
"I have many factors why I flunked that way, friends, teachers, classmates...."
Ahem. It's true. Like 100%.
I just can't wait to transfer.... But a part of me is still scared. Imagining....like...5 - 6 months...alone in that ig house. Oh well, I'm gonna have a maid again. Hope I'll get a polite one....and I hope she won't run away like my last one...
But I like the school... Super like it...
I'm just wondering if they're friendly and I will have two years of school filled with pleasant things.....
Or maybe...it will turn my two years into a living disaster...
~.~ part of the risk...I grabbed the challenge....so I have to take risks....
If it turns bad...I have to just think..."Oh well, better luck next time,"
Okay, bye...
won't be posting for quite sometime...
Busy doing research...about my future school..and the IB programme...
ta-ta.

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Jewel and I~

2010-03-19T00:31:00.000+08:00

♥ you...
♥ you...
♥ you...
my golden furry head...

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I Don't Care - 2NE1 (dance tutorial) Cre: mkafan892

2010-03-18T17:30:00.000+08:00

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2010-03-17T13:09:00.003+08:00

I can't wait to rumage through the brochures...

I really want to see...
Then I'll decide...
I'm like... somewhere between...89% in deciding...
Will edit again later..
Mom coming home in about 2 more hours... by now her flight is about to land...
This is like a death march...when she sees the house...I'm totally screwed.

Edited:
holy.
cow.
I've never known a school this expensive.
Books : +/-RM11,553.(USD3 500)
Deposit (non-refundable) : +/-RM13,399. (Rp37,xxx,xxx)
But considering...
If I have to sit for A Levels, which is another...RM3x,xxx...
It's not much difference, no?
The fees is not that expensive though...
Compared to Tenby...it's only RM200 more expensive...considering that this is like a foundation for my tertiary studies.
Yeah...another discussion is up.
Another round of thinking.

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sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

2010-03-16T00:04:00.000+08:00

*pluck flower
*plucks one petal....
"Go"
*plucks another petal...
"Stay"

"Go"
*plucks another petal....
"Stay..."

Nah... I won't do that..
But I'm really as miserably confused as that. Phew...
One says... "If it's giving a good chance, why not?"
Another says..."If you are tough enough, strike the challenge..."

Am I?
Am I tough enough??
What if I can't cope?
It sounds good...but why I don't dare to make a step...?
Something is holding me back but I don't really know what...
I wish there is some kind of online brain translator out there...
And why did my Mom assume that I don't want to go by school bus?
I don't remember saying that to her, yet I can't say it to her...
I'm one true chicken...

That school seems awesome..
.I get to go to universtiy without sitting for my A levels...
Problem? I'm afraid of starting over...
"Meeting new people and making choices is part of growing up"
Yea...how do I define that...
hmm let's see...
I'm not ready to grow up..
I'd rather be that baby that Mama and Papa love so much...
Whatever I do, they won't get pissed...
crap talk...

Okay...how do I decide...
I hate making choices...
I want ALL...I want to have it ALL...

I HAVE TO HAVE IT ALL...

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Test over... Holidays...here I come!!

2010-03-13T00:33:00.000+08:00

I'm kinda happy that test is over...the first test out of the 4 in a year...
The first test in Form 4...
Science stream...1st quarter...tackled!!
But I keep thinking that I did badly in Sejarah and Chemistry...
Cuz I didn't (can't) study the night before...
I went to bed early instead...
Oh well..what's done is done...
*it is also easier said than done...lmao.

Anyway....
Mom went back to Surabaya to look at Sekolah Ciputra...yeap...the International Baucellaureatte school I've been talking about...
Hmm...
Actually...I like the IB Diploma programme thing...the whole package...the most exciting part is... they have a selection of Film/Theatre/Music in their Art subject...
And I can choose only one out of many science subjects...which means...I can only pick my favourite...
BIOLOGY... and Chemistry and Physics can go to hell for all I care...

At the same time...if I go back to Surabaya... I'll be graduating half a year later than you guys...
Which is not cool...cuz you'll be getting your results and I will be...somewhere... around doing my exam...
And you'll be starting your A Levels...or college....while I just receive my result...
See?
I'm one step behind...and my target has been...graduating FAST....cuz I can't stand school and teachers...
I'm going for the sake of...graduating well... with a full A+ cert....

Okay...
Enough blogging...
My twitter page is kinda deserted...lolz.
I seriously can't summarize everything to 140 characters....
I hate summary...

So...
T.T.Y.L~

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Mama's 43rd B'day...

2010-02-28T01:40:00.000+08:00

I'd like to wish her a Happy B'day...
Weyh...43YO d...
Luv ya, Mama...
even if you nag me everyday, my ears feels like falling off...
even if you have to scream every night to get me to sleep...n scream again in the morning to wake me up...
ngek ngek...

Thanks for always trying to grant my requests...
Listening to my never-ending complaints...
*yes...I'm one of the factors that makes her grow old so fast...

Anyway...short post..
Gotta sleep...
Lots and I mean... LOTS...of homeworks to finish off tomorrow...
The homework that is supposed to be done in 3 days...I'm cramming in one day..
Ain't I brilliant??

Oh, I bought something off d internet...
Well...ths is the first time I bought something from d internet...other than plane tickets...
Fine..plane tickets is paid by my parents who owns 'magic cards'...you don't have to use money... just use that card... wahahahh... (watch Confessions of A Shopaholic...and read the book...)
This time...i'm experimenting on using either my bank account...by mail...moner order...or etc, etc.

Well...
if those ways should fail..
I have to put on sad face to make my parents feel guilty and make them use their 'magic cards'..
oh, don't worry...I'll pay back...in cash...
:)
see? I'm a good daughter after all...

not so short post after all, huh?
nites.
ttyl.

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funny questions? not replied!

2010-02-27T01:29:00.000+08:00

crazy people who randomly adds/text messaged/etc. you...
random people...people you don't know...
and then ask you...
"Who are you?"
bloody stupid.
Don't know me...but simply add people...simply text people.

Like...I got a message on d 19 of Feb...

First message says..
"Myem..."

Number is from Indonesia...so I suspected it's my cousin...*still do*
So I asked "Who are you?"

He replied,
"Gue andy loh leh au amu cp iex"
(I'm Andy, if I could know, who are you?)

I didn't reply...
Cuz half of me thinks it's my cousin..
I wanted to send him a message smth like..."Psshh... yea rite,"
But what if he's really a random dude?
N I will be wasting my credit forcing him to confess that he's really my cousin..
I dunno if my brain is trying to over-imagine stuff...
But I think my cousin is trying to test if I'm gonna make friends with a random guy..
(Sori aja yah...I'm not that cheap... lalala...)

I mean...really. Push aside all my stupid imaginations..
Why would you simply text a person you don't know?
What if you contacted a gangster? A terrorist? Mafia?
Later come kill you...burn your house, kidnap you...blah blah.
=_=

This is why I hate myself....
I'm half senile... friends, beware...

Oh...
yessshh..
This is based on some kind of theory...(or whatev it's called) made by my friends...
According to them..
I'm the only science stream student in the group...
Ironically, the one who's absent the most...
Wehehehhh...
I don't even notice...you guys are great observants...
Keep it up..
Now I'm the ONLY science stream student among all of u...
*glance at Alexis*
bcuz...SOMEONE...betrayed me...and abandon me in science class...ALONE.
*nah...kidding, yp!

ttyl..!

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2010-02-25T00:35:00.000+08:00

I need someone to volunteer as my punching bag...
right now...
I feel so damn frustrated...
wonder why is there no 3rd option?
Why only 2?
And those 2 are so hard...

Aim : To determine whether studying in M'sia is better than in Indonesia.

Problem statement : Which country has a tougher curriculum?

Hypothesis : Indonesia had a tougher (and longer) curriculum.

Variables : Manipulated variable : brain's condition
Responding variable : lifestyle of speicmen (in this case, the blogger)
Constant variable : the (bloody) curriculum.

Materials : A highly-pressured Form 4, 15-going-on-16 year-old girl. 10+ people giving advices. Parents. Parent's friends giving information.

Apparatus : Telephone/Handphone, Computer, Internet line.

Procedure :

...gtg school tmr.
so... tbc.
and ttyl.
>:p

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random.

2010-02-21T22:29:00.000+08:00

School tomorrow...
For some reason, I feel awkward...
Cuz I've been absent for a week...
Ahm...
oh, and yes..
I'm studying my ass out like I never did.
This is probably worse than PMR..

Why???
WHY???

Maybe...
Just maybe...

I'll be in Form 5 in July...
:))
That is...
If I get to SC....

Shut up...I don't want to talk about this..
I should not.

Okay... that's all. "3
ttyl.

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...I can't forget.

2010-02-16T23:02:00.000+08:00

He was the one who made me wait...
But he never came for me...instead, he broke my heart to millions of tiny pieces.
I remember how I cried.
How I dread doing anything.

It's been a year.

But today, I switched on my PC...saw something and I noticed, I didn't forget you..
I didn't totally let go of you.
I'm hanging on, hoping.
For the past 12 months, I thought I'm over you.
I really did, you know.

I don't want to hurt people who really loves me.
Even though he says "It's okay, take your time,"
This is very unhealthy.
If I keep going on like this, I'm making him suffer.

I must stop loving you. Even though part of me says 'Don't...'

I ~~love~~ LOVED you...

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...and so this is where it goes.

2010-02-13T23:51:00.000+08:00

Not so shocking...
I think...
Positive...
My whole family...
We're heading back...
waiting from asnwers from Ciputra School
I'm not saying anything more yet..
Cuz I don't know what is tomorrow going to be..
If my parents says "Yes"...for all you know..this is the last month...you'll be seeing me..
I can't imagine!!

sigh.
ttyl.

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2010-02-11T23:48:00.000+08:00

my parents...especially my MOM... have lots and lots of reasons on why I sjhould go back to Indonesia... Not that I hate that place... well... as a holiday spot... maybe..okay...cuz huge part of my relatives are there...
But stay there? AGAIN? Don't think so..

reason#1
I don't understand their curriculum at all...totally ZERO.

reason#2
They're english sucks...most of them..

reason#3
I hate the environment...I'm no more a kid... I need PRVACY... HELLO??!

reason#4
Their schools have toalt 6 years of high school...well... they divde it into 2 parts... lower sec. n upper sec. Their upper sec... where I'm in... has 3 YEARS... In M'sia...graduating by next year... umph...wasting time...

reason#5
I might not get along with other students... cuz (I know) they have a different attitude than my crazy freaks friends here..

reason#6
that place sucks...ahem. personal opinion...no objection will be entertained.

reason#7
If one of their reasons is because Dad's working there...why can't we visit him? Or he visit us?

and etc. etc.

My point is...
i don't like studying in Indonesia...
Mom says its trauma...
trauma from what?
Oh...right... when I was younger... I don't have friends I made myself...all of them are my Mom's Friends' kids...and how long I haven't seen them? 8-9 years...
...I have my life here...
and I am pretty happy.
Why can't you let me live peacefully?
Jealous is it?
When we first moved in Malaysia... I was 7... keep crying asking to go back to Indo..
but they made me stay...
Now... I finally accepted it...and very used to everything..
So....damn freaking easily..
"Oooohhh... Let's go back... "
HOW SELFISH!!!
Talking bout selfish..I know I am kinda...well, just a little bit...selfish too.
Well... I have to think about myself too...
Not thinking about everyone else's asses when mine is going to suffer...

peace.
n ttyl.

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gastric.

2010-02-10T23:13:00.000+08:00

...woo woo.
my gastric problem strikes back..

ohh...and anyway...
Not going to let you do what you want anymore..
I already can predict what you are going to say...
G.L.O.R.I.A

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kids-n-money article...

2010-02-07T01:20:00.000+08:00

..read this article on yahoo..
it's about talking to kids about money...
come to think of it..
this 15-years-and-25-days old girl typing out this post..
never gone through that process..
I mean.. I do...maybe. But I just don't get how the whole system actually works..
Like say... play monoply or LIFE to teach kids about money...and valuable it is..
I do play that...
and I kinda like them..
But the effects that are supposed to show...doesn't appear.

I get pocket money... every week...
The article said...dnt give kids allowance..
WTF?

oh..usually my Mom is more generous...so...that's why...
I used to cheat though..when we were staying in the apartment..
I'll go down late.. Dad's in the car...

"Pa...forgot ask mama for money..."
*gives money*

*get back from school*
"Ma, today you didn't give me pocket money..."

WAHAHAHAHHH!!! damn...I was a genius...
but since we are staying here now... this trick..can't be used anymore..
oh...wait... I think somewhere halfway...my parents found out bout my trick and...my dad will call my mom to inform her that he has given me cash..
ugh.

Really...money business...should go to Mom..
"Ma...want go watch movies with friends..."
*takes money from wallet, puts on dining table"
"YAY!!"

==;;
no questions asked.

"Pa...money?"
*gives radioactive look*
"For what now?"
"...books"
"what books?"
"storybooks"
"how much"
"75.."
"HAH?! What books is that?!"

== huge difference.
I don't know what my Mom saw in him..
so damn stingy..
oh well...opposites attract..
==

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p-p-pa-para-para...

2010-02-05T00:06:00.000+08:00

I ♥ Tic Tac Lightning.
xD
After all...I do.
^_^
For. Ever.
Can't wait for show to beginnn!! can't wait to show them the first single!!
>o<

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2010-02-04T00:19:00.000+08:00

busy.busy.busy...!!!
long story short.
Mom made appointment with Tenby... FINALLY.
Erm. Next week, Tuesday...9am SHARP.
yea.
I'll be absent again.... means. homeworks will pile up in front of my eyes just as I finished one pile..

toodles. I'm going to sleep..!!

PS : HIGHSTREET5!! Spring season starts tomorrow!! WEEE~!! can't wait to play...!!

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2010-01-30T19:40:00.002+08:00

Chinese New Year is coming!!
That means... holidays...and...$$~!!!!

Okay...anyway...Dad's coming back on the 12th.. and out of sudden...I called him on Thursday...and he said...
"Let's go to Cherating with the dogs...."
I was like "YEAH!!!"
SO I e-mailed the resort right away..
and this afternoon...got the news...
They're fully-booked...!! But they do have a room for TWO...while there is FOUR of us...plus 2 DOGS...
Well...I did ask them if they can add extra beds or something..
At the same time... I am looking for resorts where I can go for a holiday with my family..
1. Cameron Highland. In my dissapointment... SMALL DOGS ONLY. Fck.
2. Pantai Sibu, Johor. Only allow dogs to stay out in the verandah...HOW CAN I POSSIBLY DO THAT TO MY BABIES?! Leave them OUTSIDE and at home, I don't even want them to sleep in the family room...I share my room with them...especially my Jewel...My beloved GR.
3. Bon Ton Resort, Langkawi. Trouble with ferry. Cuz...of course...there will be soem problems with the ferry especially with those 8-legs. Then I suggested to my dad...by flight. 1kg=RM3.07... his reply...?
"stupid idea".

WHERE CAN I GO WITH MY DOGS THIS CNY?!

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what are you feeling?

2010-01-26T18:41:00.000+08:00

one question I wished they would ask me...
I'm drowning in guilt...and still, my inner-child...
Is throwing a tantrum inside me...
I know..my definite answer is NO.
But who am I to decide?
It's never about what I feel... is always about what he's up to.
And yes, I do feel guilty...and pity.
But is it worth it to sacrifice everything and jsut end it all?
End it when I'm on the most cheery point in my life?
And...why is my dream hard to realize?

This is killing my character... my soul...
I wonder if what they want to see is... me, depressed... or me...being in a mental institution...
It's like no one ever wanted me...
At least she's got a third-party to tell her story to someone...
But I can't...
For goodness' sake.. I'm not even 16 yet...
Why is my life so hard??
Don't compare me to others...czuse I know many are living a much more worse life than me...
Compare those from my world..people around me...
Are they ever the same?

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why do time flies so fast when you're enjoying yourself?!

2010-01-24T23:13:00.000+08:00

I can recall... like...two days ago...I was cheering.... "IT's FRIDAYYYYYYYYY!!!"
Now...tomorrow is going to be monday...wake up at 6 o'clock after bazillion times people come screaming into my room...
"Aren't you going to school?!" even though..they know I have no other options...

"Don't you know what time it is?!" Like as if I want to know...all I care is to sleep...

"It's 7.30!!!" but when you look at the clock...it's actually 7.10...epic fail, Mom...
So you see... I hate waking up in the morning.. they say..."sleep earlier..." and blahblah...BULLCRAP..!!! cuz I still feel sleepy the next day...
ahem...

oh oh...
And...Snowy is not sleeping in my room anymore!!
I returned her to my parent's room...
why? cuz she starts to destroy stuff...again..

and...omfg... it's already 23.11..?!

ttyl then...!!

PS: Can't wait for tomorrow though...
PPS: can't wait for...gee...suddenly no mood to be happy...

><;;

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dilemma... :'(

2010-01-23T21:34:00.000+08:00

hell-Ow...peeps.
err...so...yeah...
I'm tired of my current school...
I don't find the umph in the studies etc.
so...I don't know how to say this but... I feel like going to a better school, sri tenby has always been #1 on my parent's list and mine..
I don't really know what to type out here... because... I'm...feeling trapped...
if I go...it seems that I'm being very selfish...
I have very special friends in my current school...
am I ready to leave them and start over?
bitter sweet it is...
Cuz I don't know what to do either...
I know... that there's risks I've got to take...
if I moved...I can't go back...
That means... whatever choice I make...it's FOREVER...PERMANENT decision..
i'm being a little indecisive...
and I know I can't choose both... that's the worst part..
I have to leave my friends so that I could have a better education...
But is it worth it?
I don't know...
It's like...I'm breaking off from a bond we have...
I feel that it's too precious for me to let go...
I'm afraid that...I won't be able to feel 'OKAY' in a new school...
oh Lord...what should I do? I'm so lost right now...
Help me...someone...
oh god... whyyy??!!!

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A True Fact...

2010-01-21T19:55:00.000+08:00

Say...you are watching a movie / reading a book / watching tv...etc, etc.
Then...suddenly you come across this line...and you think it's cool...
you'll find an oppurtunity to use it yourself...

And people who like you (or just-okay with you) will think... "That's fine...I thought that line was pretty cool too...LoL"

And those who hates you... "What a loser...did she pick that up from somewhere? Cuz I obviously came across that line before..."

True facts of life...haha.

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2010-01-18T22:03:00.000+08:00

It's gonna be any minute from now I'm going to start screaming again...
I'm suffering from depression...
shut the f*** up...

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once upon a time...

2010-01-17T21:08:00.000+08:00

don't talk...don't say anything...and let's keep quiet, shall we?
silence is so great...
so great that...those who are depressed...will have the idea of commiting suicide...
so great that...those who are heartbroken..will feel like life has no other point...

*no time to be emo...*
Anywayyyyssss.... !

had a great day yesterday... but today sucks...cuz of the homework... and I am one of that depressed people...concealed in my room...silence... you continue...

okay...yesterday...went out with buddies... lalala...
I went news.com, buy credit...waited...suddenly, Kit tapped my back, she folllowed me but I didn't know...
Waited...called, sms-ed...but no reply from bday girl n EO...
finally EO(girrafesaur) answered my call...they're at popular...
saw girrafesaur at popular...*group-hugged*
go greenbox, register...
those who haven't had lunch..went eat...pizza...
girrafesaur and me go jusco...she bought smimsuit and goggles...
me bought hanbok-style pyjamas...
then rush to greenbox at 4pm...
sing sing sing...
jump jump jump...
laugh laugh laugh...
6 o'clock...
kit n I went to speedy... the rest go popular... alexis buy mol for her wedding...
kit n I waited at esprit...
see mama walking through the entrance...
Kit walks to watson...
Mama n I go pizza hut take away...

n I didn't even get a chance to say bye to girrafesaur...
anyways...that was an awesome day...
for more info... please call...
go-and-die-tut-you-augghhh

blueberry...

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so obvious.

2010-01-16T13:33:00.000+08:00

am I angry? no.
am I full of hatred? no.

you've got to seperate hate and jealousy from your dictionary...
at least I'm happy I'm not living like you...
Eww...
hahahahahahahaha...
disconnectttt....~~~
it's not only me...I'm not the only one...
monitor...sharp ears...
Hmmmmmmm....really?
oh well, bloodyyy....
WAkAAAaAA fly bitchessss~!!!
wwwwhooo!!!
( I try to put your stories in line,
But nothing adds up right...)

I'M GETTING OUT TONIGHT...
you're not invited...!!!!

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Science Stream students need a break too!!!

2010-01-15T23:41:00.000+08:00

I'm definetely not coming tomorrow...!!!
I did my duty as a student... I came to school for five days a week... did an average of 6 homeworks per day...
so I deserve this weekend..!!!
I'm not guilty...!! I'm tired...and I'm out to party with my friends...
and... need my sleep...
my head is so heavy even though I slept early...
and I didn't even touch my honey bunny sweety (My PC)...
and finally... oh FINALLY.... got a chance to play sweet sweet HS5...luv it...
and kestrel is gettin married on monday...
out of all time...why must it be 8.30pm?! You know my favourite tv show is on at that time?!
she said ten minutes showing up is enough...so... okay...I'll try...
toodles... me going to bed...
tata...
TTYL,

-elz-

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err...half-done blog...yay?

2010-01-10T19:03:00.000+08:00

first....~ thanks you derissa for designing this layout...
I love it...except that it's PINK...can u make it blue??? like light blue, y'know???
But thanks anyway!!! please continue making my blog amazing, derissa...
luv ya...

well...homeworking now... still have chem and bio to do... ugh...so much homework...grrrr...
wait...komsas too...
aggghhh... T-T

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I survived first week in Science stream...!!

2010-01-08T21:54:00.000+08:00

first...I just wanna say..it's not as easy as I thought...I am currently wondering on how my seniors could look so...normal... cuz right now...i feel absolutely abnormal...
The pressure is great... I mean like... not less than 6 homeworks per day... isn't that a crazy fact?
I don't even feel like switching my PC on after finishing homework...
And... I caught flu after 3 days of school... and I'm still having it... the sore throat and stuffy nose...
Yea,sux...
Just wanna rant about a teacher...one I really hate...
real annoying...
she actually said "Yes or no?" 27 times in a 40min. period...
and worse...her teaching... I can;t understand a single bloody thing...
And according to our principal...she's the best...
...well, I never thought of saying this...but I like my previous ----- teacher better... WAAAAAAAYYY better...
Oh...and Miss Joseph is kinda nice...which is shocking...
well, maybe we (I) use to find her scary because...we only see that fierce part of her...
she used to appear at our class without any notice...and check our fingernails...
and make us tie our hair properly..or for the boys' case... even cut their hair...LoL.
but she's nice...actually... (and I don't mind if Miss joseph teaches us maths... LMAO)

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Science stream??

2010-01-04T22:50:00.000+08:00

"I want to be a doctor...I want to be a doctor..."
that was what I keep saying to myself...
cuz I feel scared being in science class...
it's just...weird...the situation and all....
maybe I'm just not used to it yet...
hope I will... or it will ruin everything...
.......
I don't know...
what is this feeling? I can't describe it...all I know is...I feel something is not right...
is it because of the people?
gee...God, please help me pull through another two years... please... T-T
I'm scared...I just don't...and can't express that feeling...
everything in me is mixed...like salad...

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I'm going back to school...

2010-01-03T22:40:00.000+08:00

Yep... back to school I go...
In senior year...graduating in 2 years time...
Am I happy? Am I excited?
I'm happy to see my friends...so excited...
But kinda sad cuz my most precious friend is not in d same class as me anymore...
She's in d next class...
But at least, I know I still have some other friends that are also precious...
Hope that it won't change a thing between all of us...
I wish 2010 will be like 2009...and the years before...
Cuz it's awesome how we got along so well... ^^

Going to bed now...Nites...
I'll tell if tomorrow is awesome or vice versa...

TTYL,
-elz-

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The New Year Post...

2010-01-01T00:32:00.001+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR BABES!!!!!!
Hope 2010 will bring you all the best yah...!!!

i wanted to post about my holiday to indonesia... but that can wait...

anyway...
it's 2010... did u make ur resolution(s)...??
Gee...it's like so weird... 2010 feels so weird for me...
why?? Cuz it's gonna mean a lot to people who is born in d same year as me... which is 1994...
first... it's going to be our first year in senior high... we're in Form 4... graduating in another 2 years...!!! isn't that awesome???
and another thing...
especially for girls...
this is a huge thing... this happens only once in a lifetime..
what is that??
yess...!!
our sweet sixteen!!!
We're going to be 16 years old!!!
It's like don't know...they treat you more like a...normal civilian...
it's different... u know... like for example...
you go out somewhere...with your parents... then you bumped into your parents' friends...
then they introduce you... "this is my son/daughter...he/she is 16,,,"
well it won't be that straightforward...but still... 16 is a different age...
a whole new experience...
you can get your motorcycle license...!! Another year and you can drive a car...!!!

To my friends... ::

In 2009 I might have...

Disturbed you...

Annoyed you...

Irritated you...

Bugged you...

And you know what??

I'm going to do it again in 2010...

xDDDDD

Okay...I'm getting a little dizzy here... I just drank half a beer glass of champagne...

I think I better go to bed...

ttyl...oh...wait... did I forgot something???

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2010...!!!! (AGAIN...CUZ SAYING THAT, IS JUST SO FUN...)

PS : If I ever hurt anyone by my actions, words, etc... even though I try not to make it obvious, and deny it if you ask...I'm really sorry..

PPS: I said I'm sorry...don't ask me when you see me...that's it...

PPPS: This is NOT to a particular person...this is to everyone I hurt...

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...why I can't understand the situation?

2009-12-16T10:53:00.000+08:00

I understand...I know what's going on...
I try to just stop giving you pressure, but it's like...an inner child...who's screaming and refusing to understand...
Who still wants to do what I, myself, really wanted...
I know that they get sad everytime I ask for something they can't grant...
This situation itself...it's killing me...my life, my character.
I don't know what to do...I can't make this thing go away...
I can't make this shit to leave my mind...
Everyday...I'm like in a torture chamber, living like this...
It hurts...a lot...
This is psychological pressure...
.::...::.

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♥ c.

2009-12-10T15:32:00.000+08:00

Thank you for ur support guys!!
Makasih smua yg udah support gw...
Tmn2 smua...
Udah cukup yah...stop the chaos... I'm going to be just fine...
Dia kan udah bahagia...sama org laen...I was broken...but I got over it now...so you guys can stop the insults and debates...
I appreciate everything you guys did, especially leaving messages on my page...
Gw selalu mampir utk baca2 lohh... :D
You guys cheer me up!
Doaiin gw sama Carlo yah...
Smoga gak terulang lg kejadian yg sedih2...

So that's it for now...just a short message...bye, and thanks!!!
-Elz♥C-
moga2 slamanya yah...heheheheee...*PEACE!!

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HELLLPPPP!!!!!

2009-12-09T19:40:00.000+08:00

I'm robbed!! I've been robbed!! HELLLPPPP!!!!
I've been robbed of my internet rights!!!

*silence*
[slippers thrown at me]

I finally get to blog again...well, this might be my last post...*exaggerating mode : on
Ugh...with my bro here, and me failing to have my period last month...it's very easy for me to get pissed...
haha.
My bro keep using the damn PC...play stupid games...like usual.
*no offence to gamers, peace, lol.

Come to think of it... I never spent time with my bro at home in Malaysia...
But here, in Indonesia...where we don't have our own rooms...
We see each other like the whole day...
And I don't know why..I find him very annoying...his jokes...his questions...
Okay, don't get me wrong...I love him...(as long as I don't see him all day long...teehee)
La la la...
Don't really feel like blogging anyway...

Dead...
-Elz-

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Sicckkk...

2009-11-24T17:15:00.000+08:00

I had fever for 2 days straight...Went to the doctor yesterday... And for some reason, the doctor here is very generous with antibiotics. He gave me three 500mg antibiotics...
I drank only one though...and I'm already feeling better. Way better than the last two days I thought I'm gonna die...
Actually, it's just throat inflammation. This is where I come to doubt...like, throat inflammation? I don't feel any pain... but when he checked, he did say that my throat is red... but I don't feel any pain at all.
Anyway...I'm better now...Just a little weak...
Hahahaha...

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good. better. (not) best.

2009-11-20T13:13:00.000+08:00

I'm young. I'm crazy.
I couldn't care less.

This year is really boring...
I shouldn't have paid for the bloody internet...I paid my cousin's internet fee... Rp126.000...which is equivalent to 42 bux...
Yeah...then he keep playing stupid MMOs...yea right... I should have paid for internet cafe...
Which means...paying for what I used...not paying excessively...and in the end...I only get to use on daytime...
I feel cheatedddd...

This weekend...my two cousins and me is going to watch 2012...finally.
but according to TV...it's very hard to get 2012 ticket... it sold out for almost every session...
But if we watch tomorrow...my bro will be here too...
but I don't think he wants to go...I don't think so...

Btw...the thing I like about going out with my cousin is...I get to ride a motorbike...going fast on the road...the wind blowing in my face...

Haahhh...something I only experience with my cousins...since no one I knew rides a motorbike in Malaysia.

And...I think I wrote somewhere in my blog that I already started planning my sweet sixteen..I'm inviting my fave cousins!! Full trip paid!!! I just want them to make a passport...cuz I really want their presence on one of the big events of my life...

It couldn't be a perfect sweet 16 without them...

The invitation should be ready by the time I got back to Malaysia... :DDD

2009-11-19T14:27:00.000+08:00

Gw bisa berpura2 sampai kapan pun... tapi gw g bisa bohong sama diri gw sendiri...
Gw benci dia...dan itu tidak akan pernah bisa berubah...
Sampai kapan pun, dari awal sampai akhir...gw tetep aja g suka sama dia.
Gimana ya ngejelasin nya...
G enak aja gitu, ngeliat sifat nya, kelakuan nya...sok cantik geeetoooo...iiihhh...amit2, neng...
Gw tau lo jg benci sama gw... kita sama2 pura2... main sandiwara aja terus..
Gw juga bisa...emang cmn lo yg bisa?
Dulu juga lo ikut mojokkin gw...ngomongin gw yang jelek2...
Tapi di dpn gw...lo ngomong nya dia g bolehin lo deket2 sama gw...
Gw tau...lo nya aja yang g nyadar...bawaan otak lo yang guuuooooblokkk itu ya??
Iiihh...ngaku2 sok best friend... kaki gw lebih layak jd best friend gw daripada lo...
Best friend gw itu cmn satu...SATU... g ada yang lain...g ada ganti nya...lo ingat2 aja.
Lo bilang lo kecilan nya cute? iih... kaya gitu apanya yang imut?!
Gigi lo aja berantakan g rupa gi2 manusia gt...
Buat org yg ngetag foto lo ky...apa?? super model?? aduh mbakkk... kalo super model ky gitu...apa kata dunia, mbak?
Perut lo ky tante2 anak 3 tau...
Mata lo ky abis kena tonjok...
Gigi lo lg... g layak gw bahas deh..
bentuk badan lo emang kecil... liat aja...nti lo tua nya ky mak lo... berantakannnn!!!
HAHAHAHAHAHHH!!!!

Gw jahat banget ya? Kalo di total semua yg dia lakuin ke gw... ini g sebrp... klise yah?? terserah deh...emang kenyataan nya gitu koq...

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this is so la-a-a-te...

2009-11-18T14:54:00.002+08:00

...but I'm still going to write about it anyway..
I'm going to write about it now....cuz NOW is the time I have to upload all the pics...
Not much cuz I really haven't been to much places, I will update again...
when I visit some interesting places...

1st Nov...
Flight to Surabaya...watched Final Destination 4 in flight...the movie was put in my phone the night before... In flight, I sat near to a white middle-aged man...who plugged his ears and slept through the whole flight...
Just before the plane landed, I camwhored...

Nov 2nd...

I followed my Dad to his office..for the sake of internet... I ended up playing in the corner...

alone...

After that, I spent the rest of the week shopping...with my aunt.

Nov 7th...

Went for lunch with my Dad, Aunt, Future Uncle, Grandpa...and his 2 nurses...= =

That's my Future Uncle a.k.a my aunt's bf...and my Aunt herself..Had lunch at Duck King...again...it's like everytime we go out with my Grandpa...it's always there.

Nov 8th...

Flight to Semarang... I was very scared when I found out my dad can't accompany me to check-in...in the end... I went...alone...

yup...I was all fine.

Waiting to board the plane...

I looked a mess...I was sweating cuz I was damn nervous...it's my first time flying domestic in Indonesia...actually second time...First was to Jakarta when we had to leave for emergency when a relative passed away... But first time alone...even checking-in...

Oh...then in Semarang...of course...street food... cheap...and some are my favourite...

'Tahu Petis' (Fried Beancurd with Black Shrimp Paste)

"Martabak" (Duck egg omelette with fillings)

etc, etc....

One of the stalls...

Okay... 'til here for now...

TTYL,

-elz-

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2009-11-17T14:52:00.001+08:00

...sometimes, I feel like I'm going out of my mind,
...boy the way you do me is a damn crime,
...then you smile at me and it's alright,
...with you there ain't any in between.
...everytime I walk out that door,
...tell myself I won't take it no more,
...there's a part of me won't let you go,
...I keep saying yes when my mind's saying no,
...me and my heart we've got issues,
...don't know if I should hate you or miss you,
...damn I wish that I could resist you...
...can't decide if I should slap you or kiss you...
...me and my heart we've got issues, issues,
...we've got issues, issues, issues.

...notice me,
...take my hand,
...why are we strangers when,
...our love is strong,
...why carry on without me,
...everytime I try to fly I fall without my wings,
...I felt so small,
...guess I need you baby,
...everytime I see you in my dreams,
...I see your face,
...you're haunting me,
...guess I need you baby.

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2009-11-13T13:16:00.000+08:00

My mom is leaving for Surabaya tomorrow... I miss my puppies... I miss 'em....Especially my Jewel...

Poor thing, she'll be left with her Mom and sister...with no air-con in the night...no Australian beef for supper...

And no Serta bed to sleep at night...she'll be sleeping on the FLOOR.

Uwaaa...my baby...

Poor thing.

Kasian banget, g tega bayangin nya. Kangen bangetzzz... Pengen peluk2 dia gitu... T-T

Kangen ama ayang Jewelll...!!! Hiks.

I regret paying my cousin's internet line... cuz now I feel damn sienz, nobody to hang out with... he keep playing stupid, fucking, MMOs... But he said he wanna take me out Saturday night... Mugyaa...

But it will be better if I spend Saturday night with...*ahem*..

No larh, it's different...take this as going out with my big bro...Cuz I see him like once a year only... other things can wait... Family comes first... >_>

taking the stage.

The Last...

2 more days to saying good-bye.

shopping♥

mental pressure.

out of inspiration.

I just noticed that I'm easily distracted...

I LOVE YOU, SONY!!!

PMR Folio...TT_TT

puppies!!

personne ne prend mon coeur brisé....

That's me-- in your eyes only.

I have nothing to say...

I'm flawed, Daddy.

tra tra...another lappy pick.

FML...

cranky me.

Top 3 Lappy Picks...

wwwwww

The first step.

TAMAGOTCHI ROXXXX!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Jewel and I~

I Don't Care - 2NE1 (dance tutorial) Cre: mkafan892

*sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh*

Test over... Holidays...here I come!!

Mama's 43rd B'day...

funny questions? not replied!

random.

...I can't forget.

...and so this is where it goes.

gastric.

kids-n-money article...

p-p-pa-para-para...

what are you feeling?

why do time flies so fast when you're enjoying yourself?!

dilemma... :'(

A True Fact...

once upon a time...

so obvious.

Science Stream students need a break too!!!

err...half-done blog...yay?

I survived first week in Science stream...!!

Science stream??

I'm going back to school...

The New Year Post...

...why I can't understand the situation?

♥ c.

HELLLPPPP!!!!!

Sicckkk...

good. better. (not) best.

this is so la-a-a-te...

Hari Pahlawan in the eyes of a teen that grew up overseas...

minna, genki ka?? watashi wa genki desu...!!

It's 10:37am here... how are you guys doing? LoL.

this is MY it...

4 more days~ It's my last week in Form 3!!

random shyts. gt problem? f*** off.

désolé...

Story 321...

a confession.

Il me manque que superviseur...

*sigh* there's nothing I can do...

while you guys were partying...

PMR is over..

I L U, babe... 4eva...n eva...n eva... this is just a nonsensical rant...

Brain Lag...

PMR had made me dumber... well done.

Stay... or go?

PMR... days away.

tagged.

It's funny...how life revolve around you.

It's OVER....!! The first, at least.

dry.

I got mah tube!!!

Okay...it's not alright...

TUBE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! TUBE!!!!!!!!!!

pissed off...pissed off...

the funniest badminton game...ever!

67 days to D-Day... (and my post wudn't b perfect w/o shyts...)

random shyts.

sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

sigh there's nothing I can do...